pin your }wings{ down__________its all over now______

01APRILo6

how to save a life- The Fray

like totally *le gasp* i'm blogging lol... yes.... i just decided to have a little update.... to try and stall me from so-called "hwk"...i'm so slack now... like my art project HAHAHHA.... thats never gonna end up happening i bet...

i think im gonna convert over to sandy's side... im gonna mae a new blogspot account... okaizz ciao party people XD

just a reminder for myself because im likely to forget my username :ninja:-quixiotically__yours

.epohtsolevahew.

closing down the pattern department at 9:18PM

thirteen.apr.o6
Darenka No Negai Ga Kanau Koro-Utada Hiraku

wells.. yeah i'm going out with him now ^^... heh yeahh.... i think i quite like him now... before was having second chances but hmmms yeah... but haven't really seen him since i got school and he's got work blah blah...
yeah that is all i hafta say ahahhaa

.epohtsolevahew.

closing down the pattern department at 8:25PM

first.apr.o6
STRANGE/BEAUTIFUL-Aqualung

APRIL'S FOOL DAY.... i have no idea why i said that... >__> just had a random outburst LOL... anyways i found my ball dress YAY!!~~~ its so plain but whatever ... can reuse it hehe... and yeah booked appt. with M.A.C.... i knew we shoulda booked last week >___> now i have a really early appt. -___-.. yeah and i got THE cutest skirt from subiaco ... Whee... yeah... it was sad... me and sona were looking at all the pretty stuff and sulking about how we can't afford them....yes sona and her 1oo dollar skirt.. and me and my 4o buck bag.. which i might end up buying later on LOL

well... in general... i feel happier.... which is good XD...i mean i haven't being feeling so great lately so its a welcome change... =]... 1n1/2weeks til holz YES... good lord yes!.... anyways i was thinking.. and he's everything i would never have wanted in a guy O__O... like before i was like i'd never go out with a guy that smokes... blahblahblah the list goes on... but the thing is... i do care.. because i still think smoking sucks... but i'm willing to put up with it... like compromise >___>.... hahah yeah today was good.... just bumming in ct... and playing "dominoes"... -___-" hahaha but it was good...my legs are so tired... test week next week *cries*... wells im gonna go first and slp LOL

WAIT~~~ bfeore i go....

shes so purty XD

.epohtsolevahew.

closing down the pattern department at 11:36PM

twenty.mar.o6
flowers in december-Mazzy Star

sooo yes.... in two more days i shall be an Australian citizen! No longer will i be an unclaimed citizen......

and i get free food at the ceremony XD\ *sighs* ... free food is always good food

Anyways had a bad day today... -____-... nothing big happened... its just the little things that started to piss me off... like dropping my bottle cap... i mean wtf. yeah ... so i might go and homework soon.... at 8 maybe =

i really don't know what i want and that scares me....i wish life was a RPG game... that way if you stuff up making the wrong decision you can always reboot the game and start all over again ....and you can have a smexy guy like tidus... hehehhehe *shifty eyes* okays im off ttyl nights

.epohtsolevahew.

closing down the pattern department at 9:21AM

eleven.mar.o6
top of the world-TAAR

i think i may have just blew it ... just like every other time .... maybe its me... haha... *sighz* not sure what to do anymore...or what i want.... =... i doubt he'll be reading this so LA LA LA.............................. i'm probably gonna sit here for a while aha

Anyways....i'll probably give you guys the full details later... i don't really feel like posting it for teh intrawebs i cannot believe i woke up at 8.... O____O school really does screw up my sleeping habit...
http://www.malevole.com/mv/misc/killerquiz/ on another note i got 9/10 right on this spot the serial killer thingy SCORE

.epohtsolevahew.
closing down the pattern department at 9:21AM

twentyfive.feb.o6
soul meets body-death cab for cutie

this song describes my state better than i can so im just gonna post up the video and lyrics... *huggles song*... oooooh btw eggy came baclk and he got me makai kingdom, la puchelle, magna carta, dragon quest and shadow hearts... HAPPY DAYS... anyways... here we go..

I want to live where soul meets body
And let the sun wrap its arms around me
And bathe my skin in water cool and cleansing
And feel, feel what its like to be new

Cause in my head there’s a greyhound station
Where I send my thoughts to far off destinations
So they may have a chance of finding a place
where they’re far more suited than here

I cannot guess what we'll discover
We turn the dirt with our palms cupped like shovels
But I know our filthy hand can wash one another’s
And not one speck will remain

I do believe it’s true
That there are roads left in both of our shoes
If the silence takes you
Then I hope it takes me too
So brown eyes I hold you near
Cause you’re the only song I want to hear
A melody softly soaring through my atmosphere

Where soul meets body

I do believe it’s true
That there are roads left in both of our shoes
If the silence takes you
Then I hope it takes me too
So brown eyes I hold you near
Cause you’re the only song I want to hear
A melody softly soaring through my atmosphere

.epohtsolevahew.
closing down the pattern department at 9:5oAM

nineteen.feb.o6
finger twist and split-cute is what we aim for

yeahh so i was looking up third eye blind's lyrics... and shock/horror it's about drugs.... amazes me that i've it for so long and never noticed... but yeah lubz them *hugz them*.. anyway ... if anyone's got lyrics to CIWWAF.... please hand them over now ^^
yeah i wake up at 8.... bloody school messes up my sleeping routine *shakes fists at school* and yehh my instinct told me to go on gaia ... i go on... and theres an event going on O____O... creeepy.... yeah anyway my avvie keeps glitching...*sighs*
yeah so yr 12 sucks...LOL no i'm serious... like last year i used to enjoy going to school... ya ya i know imma wierd >__>... but anyway right now it just feels like one big meaningless repetitive boring cycle... i rather just go uni... -___- still not sure what i wanna do... i'm thinking along the lines of advertising/media/journalism yeahh i wouldn't mind that at all ahaha....
yes ... my sister went to melb and i think coming back on mon or tues... YAYNESS... she said she got me CHUCKS... CHUCKS i tell ya...*does happy dance*
Anyways... i am confused... very very confused hahaha *le sighz* we shall see what happens with time...=] okay ... me gonna try and get all the gaia event items... ugly as they are... they're free LOL

.epohtsolevahew.
closing down the pattern department at 9:5oAM

two.feb.o6
megalomaniac-incubus

you have gotta be freaking joking... i just wrote a freaking HUGE post... hell no am i typing that all out again... bloody pitas... SECOND TIME ....-___-"

.epohtsolevahew.
closing down the pattern department at 1o:o4PM

twenty.jan.o6
shimmy shimmy quarter turn-hellogoodbye

ahhh good ole insomnia has decided to return to me -____- *shakes fist at insomnia* DAMN YOU...sleeping is such a waste of time/// but yes its a good thing i don't possess any credit cards because... WOWZA .. those late night/early morning shows convinced me that my teeth weren't white enough, i needed more exercise and i needed a new juicer....damn i get sucked in by advertising easily haha...

yeah OMG only ONE more week till year 12... *sighs* this is so clique but it really did feel like yesterday that we were all just lil itty bitty yr8s... ^___^ but i still can't wait to get to uni... if i even get there LOL yeah i really miss year 1o... those were the days man ahaha

Anyways... i'm in that oh so familiar stage of crushes i always seem to get myself into =S.... the "do-i-really-like-him-or-is-it-just-a-phase" hahaha... but yeah i'm not sure...*bites lip*... i should say something because half the times nothing has worked out for me maybe because i never said anything... ahha that may also include the infamous _ _ _ _ _... ehhh we'll see.. i'll give it 5 more days ahhaha yes i'm just stalling... but what's new...
yeah moving on. i'm buying school supplies tommorow... YAY... *rolls eyes*... yeah i'm off to check out videos and stuff... so yes night people

.epohtsolevahew.
closing down the pattern department at 4:37AM

seven.jan.o6
somebody-depeche mode
that song is quite nice, love the lyrics ^__________^

"Someone who'll help me see things
In a different light
All the things I detest
I will almost like
I don't want to be tied
To anyone's strings
I'm carefully trying to steer clear of
Those things"

i don't even really know why i'm blogging today... i have nothing new to say -___- hahaha but here it goes ... i love gaia's GD... i really do... the sarcasm in that forum... i wish to bottle it up and sell it! *nods* anyway since i have nothing else better to do im gonna post random stuff i found in GD.. god this is sad... a second post devoted to gaia... *shakes head*... people... this wouldnt happen if you just got me the bloody upside down top -___-" ...so here it goes...
.. okay ... FUCK IT.... putfile.com YOU SUCK...>=( nah its probably my crappy little html skills....ahaha.. actually click on the .epohstolevahew. link below... i'll put the pix there ^^

.epohtsolevahew.
closing down the pattern department at 11:41PM

thirty.dec.o5
poetic tragedy-The Used
today i bought my siblings their late xmas presents... but since they being gay... NO XMAS PRESENTS! They shall wait and wait til their heads pop off >=D..... i might even take back that gorjus .. yes i said "GORJUS" accessorise hat i was gonna give to my sister and keep it NYAHAHAH... and i'll just give her the ring...*starts thinking evil thoughts*... but what i'm going to do with a chris rock dvd is beyond my imagination...-___-"... i dont really like him... more of an eddie murphy fan if ya know what i mean... today i blew so much monies... so poor....
OMG.... LINCRAFT IN CITY... SALE.... XD... i bought lil ribbons to stick on bobby pins... and sequins .... and a wine cooler.... i didn't know it was a wine cooler at first mkay...but yes its the prettiest wine cooler i have ever laid eyes on =]... i'm yet to find use for such a wonderous wine cooler but eh *shrugs*
tomorrow is nye.... what i figured is gaia>reality...heck i would live there if i could...tm i doubt we'll do anything... i bet we're just gonna end up gaia-ing.... by me i mean me and sona... sad yet so much better than "reality"... reality is SO over-rated *nods* anyway... i want my speshal event items ^______________^ i cannot be bothered finding vid clips today so *bleh*
.epohtsolevahew.
closing down the pattern department at 8:50PM

twentysix.dec.o6
swing swing-TAAR
yup... imma falling for the wrong guy nyahahhaa... anyways...i didnt end up going shopping ='[ but yeh it was nice to see rosie and joey for what seemed like ages ^___^ yeah and people... krispy kreme aint THAT great... they're nice... but nothing WOAH about them...*sticks loyal to puffin fresh* anyway yesterday i went to beach with my sister and her friends because no one else could go -___- but yeah it was quite fun... i got another tanline but eh... whatever... we made sandcastles and all... yeah ahaha i can't wait to watch narnia XD yeh anyways i needta get very belated pressies for my bro an d sis -____- but yeahh alls good... feels like i havent seen c!triX for like a few months but it prob beinz like a few days in actual fact ahhaha oh well...i shall see them tm ^__^... if i can be bothered XD but yes... i dont really know what else to write.... xept i cant believe the holz are goin by so fast *cries* .... i dont wanna be in y12.... but heres my new years resolutions... which reminds me that we needta plan something for nye =D
-study WAY more
-less going out
-being less unsocial lol
-start supporting artists more... so theres less starving artists on the streets ahha
and yeah thats about it LOL
i'll leave you with my favourite used song and yeeah i realise it goes outta the columns but ehh sue me -_^ i .heart. quinn XD.... anyway ....
.epohtsolevahew.
closing down the pattern department at 3:57PM

twentysecond.dec.o5
rumors-waking ashland

*bop bop* tomorrow imma going shopping... ^^ shopping=zhang=happiness... anyway imma gonna head down to red stripe to try on a corset... at Wai-con i saw this chick wear a corset over a blouse and it looked freaking hot...so yeah because corsets being quite the priciness imma gonna wear to the ball and just reuse it later on... smart aye LOL... yeah i've FINALLY decided what i wanna wear to the ball XP
-black corset that ties at back... i wanted one that doesnt show skin at the back but apparently by "sona" this isn't possible...but im thinking if i tie it REEALLY tight...>___>
-black doc martens or sum type of booty things...
-skirt-i dont know if i want pooofy of shaggy and jagged.... most likely the latter.
-crown.... not a tiara-lopsided and either have my hair all teased or..i dunno ^^"
-gloves? nehh some blingy bracelet
-either a black choker OR a piece of long black ribbon that i'll just tie around my neck

yeah... so there we have it.... i dont really care how i look on the day... because i can use 3/4 of my stuff again.... YAY for cheepness... must be my chinese ancestory XD

anyway heres the clip of the day... YAY lets all clap for the clip of the day *clapclap* it's from D<3D and its called christmas lights... my personal opinion is that they have better songs ... but i couldn't find any so deal with it ^^ enjoy
.epohtsolevahew.
closing down the pattern department at 11:55PM

twentyfirst.dec.o5
debussie-daphne loves derby

wells today was different...i am so confused...i seriously don't know what i want in life and sometimes i feel so damn empty...like sometimes it feels like i'm just a co-star to this big, elaborate movie...and everyone's the main stars... the showstoppers...the ones people pay to see...yeah i have problems... i should be happy...i got a an alright family, good friends and alright grades... but seriously i don't see my "purpose"... i have no passions nor aspirations i want to direct all my energies into...FRICCK... im getting all deep and stuff ... actually this blog really isn't for the public... more a way for me to vent instead of slowly going insane which is what i believe is occurring in my so-called "cranium" right now...anyway i think i may be falling for the wrong guy >___> <______< but ehhh ... probably just a stupid lil crush i'll get over in a few days....but seriously... my moods have being a freaking yo-yo....starting to freeeak me out =[... anyway... imma off to listen to some more D<3D... their music's so mellow and yeah makes m soul happy =]... anyway if your wondering wtfcak "closing down the pattern department" its D<3D's debut single thingy... and yeah they're the "indie darlings" for a damn well good reason =D

Every cloud that passes by
Is another cloud I'll never see
Maybe I just try too hard
To understand all of these things

.epohtsolevahew.
closing down the pattern department at 2:10AM